The last day of my writing journey in India has come. I am so grateful, I have reunited with friends I did not see since 20 years, I ave had most precious darshan with the Mountain Arunachala and Ramana Maharishis very friendly presence that lingers like a parfume around this place. I have made two new precious friends and I have been blessed. In writing the odysse has begun, some 20 000 words and many more to come about a spiritual journey and meeting with many remarkable people, saints and gurus in and out of form. This morning there are three water lilles in the pond. I am feeding the fish, big and small. The big ones lay with their stomach upp and their mouth open to the surface of the water, waiting for the food to come, Really funny, like babies. With or without company in my mind there are always others, me and others. Behind that ongoing conversation with myself acting as me and others, there is wast, unfathomable silence and deep peace. Just holding these both in my hands: the personal and the beyond, brings me peace. I like to quote my teacher in the Diamond Approach:
”When the personality is gone, you feel alone, because the boundaries—your ideas and memories—are your father and mother. The separateness is your memories of your mother and father, your relationship with them and all your past experiences which you’re bringing into the present. Your past experience separates you from the now. That separation from the now is a boundary around you like an eggshell. To let the boundaries go means accepting aloneness. When aloneness is accepted, there are no boundaries. What you perceive then is just lack of boundaries. This will be experienced as a newness, a rebirth.
From Diamond Heart Book Two: The Freedom to Be, ch. 10
And my wisdom teacher Papaji:
You are the One which is aware
of the awareness of objects and ideas.
You are the One which is even more silent than awereness.
You are the Life which precedes the concept of life.
Your nature is Silence and it is not attainable,
It always Is.
~ Sri Poonjaji ‘Papaji’
Send you all my blessings from India and the foot of the mountain Arunachal.